Incoherently rambling about my insecure illusions

When you are finally gifted with love, but find yourself unable to receive because you never believed you truly deserved it.

💌 Dear Ruksi 💌
I am in this weird place of feeling so unworthy of the blessings & love that has entered my life. I over think. Like is this actually for me? Little ole me? Whats the catch? I'm waiting for someone to pop out and yell "You got punk'd!"

Like wheres Ashton, seriously ? I'm not ready to receive, well I don't FEEL ready. Like I feel I have to wait until Im in my best place to then accept what I've been praying for. Like a gift has been presented and I can't bring myself to claim it. It can't be mine. Too good to be true. This box of limitation Ive placed my heart into. 

Sincerely, 
Incoherently rambling about my insecure illusions trying to rob me of my joy

🔹obscure emotion: When you are finally gifted with love, but find yourself unable to receive because you never believed you truly deserved it.🔹