Dear Ruksi,⁣ Sometimes it's strange to be apart from someone right after they leave. You can picture them being in the same room with you and taking up some space a few moments ago, but they're just not there.

There is an urge to touch the same objects they have touched in the past. Somehow, an object with just a few fingerprints from them makes you feel better about them leaving. You're expecting them to pop in any moment now, but it's not going to happen for a long time. And when you realize that, your heart sighs and reality kicks in.⁣

⁣Sincerely,⁣ Left Behind⁣

Obscure Emotion: When the absence of someone is so large that it fills the space left behind with emptiness⁣

Dear Ruksi, I constantly feel myself as not enough in everything I do, but my coping mechanism is to do more things. The cycle of needing to please everyone makes me feel more inadequate and then the continuous projects make me feel like I’m always drowning. I feel guilty doing something for myself, and yet feel exhausted from giving myself entirely to people. It’s a cycle I’m trying to get out of, but I just find myself more entangled.

Sincerely, Lost in my Own Inadequacy

Obscure Emotions: “When you are drowning yourself in your own waters yet unable to contain it for yourself. exhausted by giving, guilty for receiving.”

What can I say. Distance is doing us apart. I wish I could tell her the truth but it hurts. I have looked at her like no one, I have cared for her like no one, for I have loved her like no one. But things are changing - I no longer dream about her, I no longer feel her presence and I no longer feel the need to hear her. What is happening to me?

Sincerely, A Broken Heart

Obscure Emotion: “When you’re forced to cut the string of a previous heart break and feel the pain of forgetting someone you’ve once loved.” ✂️

Dear Ruksi, Do you ever feel like your heart is so big and bursting full of love ? You just have to give this out and share the grace with everyone around you - especially with those you really love? But all of a sudden you feel very empty inside because you realize there’s no one behind you to do the same to you - no one really who understands how much you care?

Sincerely, Secretly in Need of Love

Obscure Emotion: When you give love in abundance, yet fearful you'll run dry and empty soon enough

Dear Ruksi, If love is letting someone go, like setting them free, then how am I suppose to feel when they return? It's confusing, and I don't know what to do. I don't know if I'm suppose to do anything, or if it's right or wrong.. Was I ever really loved in the first place? Do people just change? Is this just a lesson for me to learn about love or just letting go, or both? Is this what God feels about me?

Sincerely, Uncertain about love

Obscure emotion: When you encourage your loved ones to fly free, only to have them deflate and fall back on your face.

Dear Ruksi, Sometimes I feel uneasy about my contentedness. Then I find myself trying to find something lacking so that I can continue to look for happiness instead of just be it.

Sincerely, Looking in All the Wrong Places

Obscure emotion: When you feel unworthy of happiness that you continuously search for it rather than accept it’s already within you.